Excerpt: ‘The Art of Breaking’, by Rebecca Jessen

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Dec 30
On my way to the airport. Letter from my psychologist tucked into notebook. #coping

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Dec 30
Landed in Sydney. Catching the train west. Letter from psychologist tells me to consult my ‘Fun Activities Catalogue’ daily to help my mood.

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Dec 30
My first ‘fun activity’ while visiting my family will be #179: Thinking I’m a person who can cope.

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Dec 31
Mum is hitting the local RSL tonight with my older brother while I’m on babysitting duty. #supportyourlocalRSL

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Jan 1
Recovery from NYE spent shooting aliens with my four-year-old nephew.

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Jan 1
Mum’s asleep on the couch after big NYE. Slurpies with lil sis at 7/11 help cure heat and lack of sleep.

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Jan 3
Anyone heard from my gf today? Can’t seem to get hold of her.

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Jan 3
Anxiety is helped by #56: Spending time with a loved one. Taking selfies with the lil sis in the bathroom cause the light is better.

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Jan 3
Gf finally called. Said her phone was being ‘weird’ all day. Can phones be weird like humans?

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Jan 4
Woke up with a sad hangover. Trying #60: Thinking I’m an OK person. #defineOK #funnotfun

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Jan 4
Sitting on my sister’s skateboard at the top of the driveway. The view is not bad from here. #120: Star gazing.

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Jan 5
While #115: Chatting on the Internet, my gf says if either of us ever fell for someone else we shouldn’t stand in each other’s way…

Bec Jessen @randomshypoet – Jan 5
Is she #168: Fantasising about the future?


This piece appears in full in The Lifted Brow #30. Get your copy now, or read it in our digital version.

Rebecca Jessen is a Toowoomba-based writer and the award-winning author of Gap (UQP, 2014). She is currently working on a memoir collection.